Running Out of Steam

The title says it all really, for whatever reason i've nearly just completely run out of steam and motivation. It's not just this advent blog, but also lectures which are being affected. It's got to the point where i'm not really sure whether it's still worth blogging daily, as i seem to be just writing loads of sort apology posts, which wasn't exactly the point. Maybe it's because of a total lack of material, that might be true, but there's plenty of things to write about out there. Although i do know that my writing style really doesn't work like that, if someone gives me a topic to write about i can normally spurt out some totally grade a waffle. Otherwise i just tend to well... write, it normally starts with only a simple idea and then my brain just takes it wherever, sometimes without ever really being consciously recognized.

 Surely given that i could very easily pick a news story of a event of the day and just start writing about it then. I could but i really think the core problem here is deeper than just writing style. For starters the reason i really can't be bothered today, goes down to the fact that currently i want to go and talk to other people elsewhere in college, unsurprisingly writing blogs isn't the most social thing in the world. This feeling has been especially empahised this last week as the realisation that i only have a few nights left here in Durham and that it might be nice to actually spend that time talking to them in person. Will it be easier when i'm back home? No, if anything it'll be harder as the there i want to spend all the time i can chilling out with my girlfriend. After all i only have 5 weeks at home before coming back to uni for another term.

The other reason is the Pokemon game, which is no longer following the rules of the Nuzlocke challenge: i still can only catch the first Pokemon in each area, but the fainting equates to dying is no longer in effect, but the nickname one is and is the cause for the attachment that doesn't want me to release them once fainted really. Does this make the whole thing a futile exercise, well in terms of Pokemon, no as i'm still using Pokemon previously that i wouldn't. In terms of general life, yes it is quite futile but so is playing Pokemon at uni really.

This leads me on to the final reason why i think i've run out of steam. The workload. No not the huge amount of work i have to do, quite the opposite. Engineering has quite simply wound down for Christmas with less lectures no maths work or problem sheets, and only a solitary CAD assignment to dig into, which before you ask will be finished tomorrow once i've queried a few things. It's similar to sleep really, if you sleep little you'll be tired, but if on the other hand you sleep too much and relax too much, you'll be just as tired.

Having said all these things about why my questioning of the daily blogging, i now realise that they are somewhat hypocritical as they have given me something to write about. However i can say, and previosu days can testify, that this will not be the case everyday. I will keep blogging daily though, whether for the odd moment of inspiration that was lurking below the surface, or just to keep me in habit so when something does happen which i can write about, i will be forced to write about it. See you all tomorrow.

Day 10- double digits, doesn't really mean much since we're still less than half way.